But I'm not too worried...
A whole year is near an end, but after seeing 23 beginnings and endings, I'm long used to it. I am however not used to distance between those I love as human beings who I only see during the school year, people who are close to me (in distance but also as friends). How is it that school brings us together and once we're 'free' we separate back to our small pockets of friends, back in the towns we grew up in - for a while or for life - it intrigues me that we are separated...which I think to an extent that is fine, but not too far (which is where I think it is now).
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What's also on my mind is that I am entering my senior year, a B.A. in Psychology by next December (God willing). I will find practical use with such a degree once I get back into Youth Ministry, but that is something that will have to wait (or at least in a full time sense) because I have a fiancee and two sons, so I'll have to invest time and energy to start providing them in that sense, but being a Youth Minister is no raisin in the sun experience that'll slip through my fingers, but in time...in time.
Chrissy and I'll be together as a couple for a year on the 10th of January, I'm still brainstorming what I can plan out to make it special (perhaps dinner out or something like that). I made her a wonderful St. Valentine's Day dinner last February, I hope to top that sometime soon!
We planned to get married after I graduate next December, April 11th be precise, but we're talking it over and we might get married sooner, as in September of next year! Exciting, Scary, but heck, I'm up for it if she is! It would be nice to get married sooner, but admittedly I know I will be busy with school work during the Fall semester, so my duties as a husband and father will be limited. I hope it all works out for the best, but sometimes I can be such a doubting Thomas in my life -- I have many WHAT IFs -- In which I am learning and relearning to give all the worries of my life to my Heavenly Father.
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