As in blogging, but more so in pen and paper.
A lot has unfolded in my life and while I do like photography, sometimes writing is more therapeutic to me as for expressing what's really going on in my life. I won't bore ya with the details, but I just can't deal with my life surroundings any more, I will get out eventually but I can't afford to with the job I have...so I'm between a rock and a hard place currently. You take that and throw in the weight of some friends problems, I should learn to let go but I can't...
I hate the feeling of inadequacy,
I hate the feeling of progress made and yet slipping back down a slope,
I hate that I'm not where I want to be at in life at this time, if not for a few moments of life and shit hitting the fan, I think I'd be in a much better place but I'm not.
So I'm out of here as far as posting photos, if I write it'll be a bit more real as to what's going on in my life, I know I won't get slandered or judged here, but even if I were I really don't have anything left to lose.
I truly recognize that life for me is shitty but God is good to me and is helping me out even though there are some mornings I would rather just sleep the day away...In time I'll be on my feet and have a better life to wake up to, heck I might have a better camera by then! 
So I'll continue to write and post photos...but with less frequency. I will cling to my father in heaven because he's been there through previous times in the valley, I will continue fighting this shit and not give up because it would cost me more to surrender.
Have a good day and goodbye for now,
Nathanael
This song kinda sums it up...
