Friday, January 16, 2009

Girl to English: She said, what it meant, I thought, but now...

I am somewhat speechless for some events that unfolded this past weekend. It all started about a month ago when I received some nice texts from my ex fiancee, to which initially I was a little shocked that she was texting me (I do think it is communication to a certain extent in this day and age).

Rewind 9 months ago, she broke up with me over reasons that are none of your business, I was heartbroken, devastated, depressed, etc. over losing my fiancee, my best friend, the one I could tell anything to and with kids also involved -- yeah, I lost probably the biggest chunk of my life apart from being a follower of Christ... Anyway, she used the line Let's just be friends and somehow I assumed that was another way of saying I don't want to see you or talk to you ever again. I know it might mean that for some girls, and I thought so with her, she sent me a few texts over these past 9 months, but they hurt me because it took me back to when she and I were an US.
So when I start receiving texts, nice ones from her, and then a note saying I never wanted to stop being your friend...my head started spinning; To not hear from her, to not seeing her or her sons, it messed with me.

So we casually started texting and then she and I worked out a time in which she and I could hangout, this too threw me for a loop initially. On Saturday last week, we hung out at a place we used to go when we were friends (I have known her for close to 4 years), when we dated and when we were engaged. I thought it would be awkward for me to chill with her, but it really wasn't! Her younger son joined us, and her late owl friends weren't able to, so it was her and her son and I. 9 months without spending time with her or her sons, dang blazes time goes so quickly, I won't delve into memories about her son because I might start crying...but he's talking now, he was a little shy at first but he loosened up (so did I) and we had a blast playing in the McDonalds playground...good times! Even talking to my friend (she is) it wasn't awkward, we talked about some stuff that's been going on in our lives and it was groovy.

She and I spent nearly 6 hours with each other, I enjoyed her and her son's company, we hugged, said we'll hang out soon and parted ways.

I earnestly will try time to hang out with her, I know she's being honest with me when she says she wants to spend time hanging out too.

9 months...I'm glad to have her as a friend again.

[n][v]

0 comments: