sad and yet...

*sigh*
what have i done, or rather what have i not done...

my father just wrote me this email... i said my goodbyes, or at least some of them. i shouldn't make excuses, but i saw him and said bye, but i guess that wasn't good enough. *double sigh*

he's not totally emotionless, but sometimes... he's more mecha vs. orga. to me- a person made of wires/oil and not veins/blood/etc.

i'll call home now...
(it's gnawing at me.)
///nv///